Since my therapy session on Friday morning my anxiety has been absolutely ridiculous. Normally I have somewhat of an on and off low grade general anxiety and a very high social anxiety. Then there is the panic attacks associated with my PTSD when I have a flashback or nightmare or something of that sort. Since Thursday night/Friday morning though, I have had intense anxiety. My heart has stayed at a high rate, I cannot seem to sit still, I actually feel incredibly exhausted from it all, and I am feeling somewhat depressed and have cried off and on.
My therapist told me to go walking as I used to do this quite a bit for my anxiety to get the energy out. I tried to do this on Friday and Saturday. Friday I just broke out into tears about 30 minutes into it. I wasn’t just slowly walking either, I was going in intervals of walking/jogging. But the energy and anxiety just wasn’t leaving me.
I recently changed anxiety medications. But my previous one wasn’t doing anything at all. I am not sure if this new one is making things worse or therapy is just bring up new emotions. I also just came back from the family reunion which was quite difficult for me and I think brought up a lot of memories too.
Getting through this weekend has been incredibly hard. I cannot wait until tomorrow morning when I can call my psychiatrist and beg him to raise this dosage or give me something to get through until the next appointment, or make the appointment earlier. This anxiety is really getting to me! It doesn’t even seem like my coping skills are helping me anymore.
If anyone has any insights into how they deal with anxiety when their meds aren’t working or if they don’t use meds at all, please let me know because I could really use the help.